PART - II (#2)
I started too young in this... or too old?! It sounds too unbelievable to consider this as the real interrogative of a full-time college student. I needed to avoid being so popular and started a new trend just to find an answer. At that time I did waste my time looking behind people's smiles. For all the research, I found a new threat in my life... smoking (cigaretts and pot). Even the Internet was faster when I started. Everything did seem to have sense and even the Goddess was willing to back me up. Seriously, I never thought of so much shit in my entire life until I did smoke. But people started gathering up in my little room and soon it was too crowded. I needed some air, some decisions to make by myself like some new dilemmas, ideas, tooth paste, underwear... beer...
(PAUSE)
Pack and get dress... before your parents hear us... before all hell break loose...
Dreamland was demolished. Now it's only a wasteland near a gay disco and a fabric of condoms and beers. But it was next to the so-called best college in this imaginary world I live in. All mixed up and you can have me like a laboratory rat for two drinks and a moment of good time. Injected with all kinds of publicity and mistaken lectures in life. This rat all that needed was to wake up from that dream and feel what was life all about. Coke was good. I reunited with some friends and they dig my money and all I did was laugh. Had a girlfriend who actually bought the precious white baking-soda-like powder. I did break up with her like any other gay couple does after finding someone better looking. But I swear I'm not innocent... Since when people are monogamous!? I went to the I-hate-everything list probably because of that. Went through all the initiations like a good scout. Never knowing the truth underneath it all.
Then I met you.
You can laugh... the spineless laugh... I hope all your rules and wisdom choke you!
